Just close your eyes,

And go to sleep.

Escape.

Everyone's afraid of something. Be it an irrational fear, such as clowns or balloons, or the fear of a giant banana cream pie falling from the sky. They can be "simple" fears, like spiders or sharp objects, death. Or they can be more profound. For example, a lot of people are afraid to die. They can't tell you why they are, they just are. It might be a fear of an early death; of not having enough time to do what you want to do or go where you want to go. It could be the spontaneity of it; you don't know when it's going to happen, or how. You just know you're going to die. Because everyone dies.

Do you want to know what I'm afraid of? I'm afraid not of the dark, but of what it hides. I'm afraid of people. Because people are crazy, and confusing, and difficult to read. I'm afraid that I'm never going to leave this town, and see the people I love. I'm afraid to grow up, because it's difficult enough right now. I'm afraid of missing out, of not seeing or doing the things I want to. I'm afraid of not finding that one person that everyone talks too much about, that all my favourite novels depict; my Mr. Darcy. I'm afraid of the future. And the past. And everything in between.
I'm afraid of me. ME. Why? I don't know. Because I'm unstable. Because I know it's up to me to change the things that go wrong, but I can't seem to muster the courage, or the strength. I'm afraid of hurting more. Of not getting better. I'm afraid of me, because I can "make me or break me." I control my future, but I can't get a grip on the wheel.
I'm just afraid. I can't let fear control my life. Not completely. Fear can be good. Fear can push you to do the things you normally wouldn't do.

I'm afraid I won't be happy.

I can't be afraid to live.

But I am.